foreverbeme’s blog

Well, the holidays are over .. tension! isok kenak pegi keja lagik. the best part is i havent finish my work, updating lesson plans and notes for class. what a irresponsible lecturer:) im way too exhausted today, jadi driver bukannya senang, especially from one end to the other end.penin palak..

hmm.. today i found a miracle product that can make our skin clean and clear. Well, ive been switching skincare products and today after so many years, finally i saw some living proof. i think i wanna try this product, safe and guaranteed. lagikpun this thing was a boom in s’pore for the past years. So after seeing some people using it, i decided to give it a try later.. very expensive but can be used for few months. i really want a clean and clear skin..

somemore got this plum product that would be useful to detox your body and loosing weight.. hmm, its time to loose weight!! why not i invest some money, i never invest one. so, there’s no harm to try. somemore i need to detox my body. too much toxic in my body i guess. that’s y i always felt sick .. its about time to invest some money for own health.

my old friend of mine post me a question today.. kinda hard to answer but i know what he’s trying to say. guess he’s been reading my mind.

you miss someone so much, you know that you love the person but why you cant say it out. love shouldnt have fear he says,love should give us strength and courage. You cant call the person or sms the person to say all those things that you felt inside.so he asked again. what’s the point of feeling it when you cant say it out. or when you’re not allowed to express it ..why? i sometimes asked myself that question too.you feel it inside. you know you do but you cannot say it out. so where’s the sense in that?

well, its simple. In life, sometimes we will meet some people whom you might think the one but in the end you find out it was not meant to be. Love does not guarantee a happy ending. Not all people who are in love ends up to be together. This is a painful fact, a bitter truth but somehow you just have to live with it.

i guess im used to keep my feelings to myself. Whether i say it out or not would not make any difference. That was my answer to his question. And he replied, well love shouldnt be this way.. and he give me this look and he said, you should not surpressed about how you feel, your pain.it will kill you slowly day by day.. and that’s why some people claim love hurts when it shouldnt be…

This is my first blog on friendster.Actually never thought that i would write things in here but then again i guess what’s the difference with journalscape.Its all the same thing, sharing ideas, feelings and experiences in life, in love, in career etc. Hmmm.. it took me sometimes to think on what’s the title should be and what’s to write. Then the word holding on came up to my mind and i wrote it as my first title for my first blog.

I guess the title is somehow suits my situation at this point of time or perhaps these few years. In life we have so many belief that we hold on to or we believe into. I’ve been holding on to things that perhaps way too impossible to happen. Deep down, i dont loose hope and faith so i keep on believing the power of prayer that someone used to tell me. Pray to Allah, He will listen to all your prayers no matter how impossible it seems. Then he asked me, what do i want in life? That very question somehow made me realised that its been a while that i asked myself what do i want in life and till now im still figuring it out..

So many things in my mind. If human can actually read or see other people mind and heart, i guess some people would freak out to see what’s inside me.Hmm … now im getting way too personal for others to view..

anyway,im now listening to a song that someone gave to me and when i first listen to the lyrics, i realised the message that he’s trying to send . hmm, write more senses soon ..

She believe in me

While she lays sleeping
I stay out late at night and play my songs
And sometimes all the nights can be so long
And it’s good when I finally make it home
All alone

While she lays dreaming
I touch her face across the silver light
I see her dreams that drift up to the sky
And she wakes up to my kiss
And I say it’s alright
And I hold her tight

And she believes in me
I’ll never know what just what she sees in me
I told her someday
If she was my girl,
I could change the world
With my songs,
But I was wrong.

But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way, find a way

While she lays waiting
I ask myself why do I hurt her so
What calls me on along this lonely road
Why don’t I turn around and head back home
Where I belong

While she lays crying
For she knows how my heart is ripped in two
I’m torn between the things that I should do
She deserves it all and I’d give it if I could
God, her love is true.

And she believes in me
I’ll never know what just what she sees in me
I told her someday
If she was my girl,
I could change the world
With my songs,
But I was wrong.

But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way, find a way

While she lays sleeping
While she lays sleeping for me